退一步海阔天空。。。

I realised the beauty of the phrase today...

Mum was really agitated when she forgot about me having an early dinner at home today. She sounded really furious and tired, saying I didn't remind her about it today and that she's finally had a free day without work, only to be rushed to cook dinner again...felt very guilty...

On other days, I'd have rebutted back and say something hurting. Guess I was kinda tired today. Did something I dun usually do. I juz reassured mum it's alright and told her that I can postpone my meeting and that she need not have to rush out dinner. Pushed back the meeting with my GLs for 30min coz I was running late. This reassurance really cooled my mum down. And seeing how I enjoyed dinner, her anger and agitation went away :)

The food mum cooks really nice! :) Pity i had to rush thru dinner, else I would have stayed on the dining table for another 15min, licking my fingers clean from the sauce in the chicken dish...hee...

Found myself getting irritated at very very small things. Guess I've not been occupying my time fruitfully this holidays. Didn't find job. Didn't learn new things. Been lazing around pretty much until now. Freshmen Orientation Camps coming up, preparations well underway. However, whenever I'm not doing Orientation stuffs, I let my mind run wild and become a suspicious, paranoid, intolerable jerk..my tempers would flare ever so easily. *sigh*

After seeing how moving a step backwards in an imminent quarrel or an uncalled for situation helps to sooth tempers and restore peace, I like the results. Though I've been taught about this phrase for since-dunno-when, seems like I finally realised the true meaning and wonderful results it brings about.

This reminds me of the time when I accidentally shot my mouth and tease BC on the soccer court, resulting in myself getting such a hard knock in the knee that i had to limp for 1 whole month. Hmmm..what would happen if I had retaliated? Anyway, was in no position to retaliate...couldn't even stand straight then...did felt very sore after that though, in my heart and in my leg..but as time passed, the sore in both my heart and my leg slowly faded away...and my disgust and "hatred" for BC too disappeared. Was really mad at him still though..he could have apologised after I apologised for shooting my mouth ar...haiz...

Lesson learned: Time heals wounds. Stepping a foot back in an imminent quarrel allows space for parties involve to think and make the correct decision.

For myself, I guess I'll continue to keep to myself. Speaking less means bringing about less trouble. And of coz, less chance of making myself a fool...Understood this for a long long time already :)


Suddenly had the energy and zest to help my gf come up with an easy excel expenditure worksheet. It's to keep her spendings in tab, else she'd lose track of her spendings and use up the money she wanted to save for her end-of-year trip. Hopefully, I can do some saving up on my own and accompany her on her trip this end of year :)

Feel really lucky to have ZH with me. She's someone I can talk to, someone I can confide in, without being afriad I'd make a fool of myself. Been feeling very lonely and very lost since her departure to Shanghai. Can't find a person I can really trust to speak to. I really hope she can come back soon. I really really miss her...

Countdown clock for her return has finally broke thru the 1xx Barrier. 199 days more before she returns back to Singapore. Hopefully, my 胡思乱想 can come to an end with the start of the busy Orientation season and the start to Year 3 Sem 1 in NTU :)